A Life of Love

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I am a person who is high in faith. I’ve been reading a book, “The Purpose Driven Life,” by Rick Warren. I started to read this book to work on a closer relationship with God. It goes through trying to figure out your purpose in life based on God’s plans for you. I found it to be interested. I took more time to truly read the words, read the scriptures included. I’m still not really sure of my purpose in this life, but I have faith that as long as I keep praying, I’ll get to where I’m meant to be. I am working on trusting the process, trusting God and the universe, and letting go of the worry in my life. If I’m focused on worry, I’m not focused on faith.

I’m not writing this post to shove my views at anyone. I’m writing this post to explain that while I don’t know my purpose yet, I know everything in my life is about love. It’s the one thing repeatedly stated in the Bible. I struggle sometimes with the fact people twist words. They use God and the Bible for their own benefit, their own personal gain. How can you believe in God if you believe in hate? If you read the Bible, you would know the one thing he wants for everyone is to live a life of love. We wouldn’t have war, hatred, or discrimination if people truly took the time to understand the words written.

Churches and organized religion destroy the good in this world. They promote outcasting certain people based on who they love, how they choose to worship, their social status. It was never meant to be a divided world. We are all to work for the greater good, for each other, and that’s what pleases God. I’m not sure where the miscommunication has come from. I no longer go to the church I was baptized in. I also worked there and some members of council worked at an agenda. They wanted complete control and power within the church. They wanted things their way and did everything to make it miserable for me, and others. That is not what it’s supposed to be about. They pushed their own agenda at everyone instead of increasing love and acceptance for the different personalities within the church.

I want to live a life where I can make a difference by emitting love and kindness. I am only one person, but if we all take a moment to show kindness when possible, it can change the world for the better. I know this post was a bit of ramble so I hope you are able to take something away from it. I also hope you find something good in this day.

~Mac

Be Different

~ Mindy ~ Leave a comment

I spent my youth not speaking. If I spoke, it was in a whisper. I didn’t have a lot to say. I was busy watching the world around me. I would notice how others would speak to each other. I took note to tones. I was not normal by many people’s expectations, but I was me. I was made fun of a lot. The girl who didn’t talk. Huh? What was that? So funny to so many, except for me. My face would go bright red. The tears were in my eyes. I didn’t fit in. I didn’t belong. I had so so much to say, but I was scared to say it anyway. I wanted to right others’ wrongs. I wanted to calm the anxiety of others. I wanted to be an ear to listen, arms to hold. But my heart wasn’t something I understood at all young age, and by the time I did understand, so many had taken advantage of my kindness. I was never meant to fit in. Because my heart was never the same. I couldn’t hurt people. I couldn’t gossip. I could t engage in things that made me feel bad. I wanted to help. I wanted to heal. I wanted to fix so much. Crucify me for who I was. Destroy me for who I am. I will never change. I wasn’t meant to fit in. I was created to be different.

~Mac